Knowing you as I do Ladymuck I know why this is so difficult for you, and maybe not quite as difficult for someone else. However, objectivity in life is essential. i.e to fully comprehend someone's actions, decisions etc. you need to detach yourself completely from the emotional relationship. It doesn't matter what your views are on assisted suicide. It doesn't matter whether you agree with her decision or not. Rightly or wrongly this is an avenue open to people in this world we live in. Carry on visiting, make her aware you do not agree with her decision but accept it. Peace and love. Emmanuel