Don't get me wrong, I see a lot of good stuff and beauty around me. I am fabulously blessed to have two fantastic beautiful children, friends, a house and a job. However, I've got to confess that as I'm working two sometimes three jobs just to provide the basics (I'm not entitled to help as I earn too much - imagined how I laughed!), as I often go without basics just so my children can eat, as I can't sleep through worrying about where money for bills is going to come from, as I'm just lurching from payday to payday with the help of The Money Shop, as I can't even sell up and and move to a cheaper area because my credit rating is f***ed (mortgage advisor still laughing)... Just wondering, is it just me, or does it all seem pointless sometimes? Before you all call the police, I'm just wondering out loud. Want to start an open honest discussion between real people in ED. My children are loved, cared for and excelling in school. They have no idea what goes through my head. I would never ever do anything to cause them grief. So, that cleared, am I alone?... Does it all seem pointless at times???