I'm afraid that getting my notes, which were full of outright lies, made me feel worse. It wasn't until I was able to gatecrash a maternity services meeting and talk directly to the head of maternity services, and discovered that contrary to my notes, i was not the only person to complain about my awful, cruel and sadistic Kings midwives and that they had been disciplined and taken off night duties so they could be supervised properly, that I finally felt remotely vindicated and was able to get over the ghastly experience to some extent,and I would recommend this, even though my experience at Kings has given me a real empathy with victims of torture and imprisonment, and, years later, I am still completely claustrophobic.