Hello Natty, I don't know your gender or whether you even like football. But, if you do and are female, I regularly (when I am not injured!) play with a very nice and inclusive bunch of ladies. You would be very welcome to join us. The fresh air, exercise and friendly, motivational banter would help your terrible loneliness - I am quite sure. I imagine that it must be very difficult - no, nigh impossible - for you to gather up sufficient energy to do very much in your time of grief, however if this does remotely interest you, PM me for details.