Dear All, and especially Yorkie I was looking for a cleaner, and I stumbled upon this thread. I do wonder if we should organise a "TMTM" (Tired Mums Together Morning)! My heart goes out to you, and all the brilliant Mums that are struggling with the juggling act of balancing work, home, babies and relationships. I have 2 daughters, 14 months apart. Due to many factors, moving over here from West London, loosing my support network of fellow Mums, planning a return to work after 2 lots of maternity leave back to back, carefully sourced childcare falling apart at the last moment... I fell into a behaviour patter similar to yours, getting very angry and lashing our at my partner. Poor thing, he tries, but no he doesn't hoover in the corners, and he doesn't remember to put out the recycling, he leaves bits of spinach on the kitchen counter after he's wiped up. And after a day of him doing the childcare, well, let's just say many things are not as I feel they should be! But I realised, I wasn't coping, and I was getting very down, the blackhole was starting to engulf me. There were moments when I was so tired, even the smiles of my beautiful babies didn't lift my mood. I struggled alone, until my sister said perhaps I should visit the doctor. My nature has always been quite sentitive and highly strung, and I think she could recognise that I wasn't quite right. Seeing the doctor was a huge release, I cried, alot, and for the first time, someone said words that helped. "No wonder you are feeling down, you have alot on your plate!" I should also mention my eldest daughter was developing a squint, and we were up and down to Moorfields eye hospital. I had several discussions with the doctor, and in the end I decided to try taking an anti depressent, along with having a course of councelling. This wasn't post natal depression, but it was a form of depression that arose due to living through a very stressful time. Taking the anti depressents wasn't something that I wanted to do, I was scared. But it got to the point where I was relieved to be getting some help, and I am delighted to say that they are really working for me. I have felt much more wonderful since then. Life still has its ups and downs. I still get really tired, and I still feel that the balance of who does what in our relationship is off kilter! There are still times where I could explode, but I have a calmer way of dealing with those emotions. I don't suggest for one minute that anyone should take anti depressants willy nilly, but in some cases, they can certainly help one through very dark patch. Good luch and well done to us all! x